Beautiful Vulnerability

There is something beautiful about being vulnerable. A friend told me this about a year and a half ago. I remember cringing as he said this to me. The person I was at the time responded very differently to these words back then.

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At the time, we were sort of dating, and he told me this statement in order to get me to loosen up a bit. He was asking all the tough questions, attempting to break down walls I had spent years building up. I dodged his questions (successfully…so I thought) and chose not to self-disclose. That’s when he said, “You know, Marisa, there’s something beautiful about being vulnerable.”

I remember my body physically responding to that statement—muscles tightening, jaw clenching, body overheating—I was resisting in so many ways. It makes me think about what else I was resisting at that time in my life.   I was so closed-off and afraid of being vulnerable, even to a person who was completely open and receptive to my vulnerability. I felt so awkward, and it was so obvious. All I could think was how do I get out of this conversation? Somehow, probably with a bad joke or some kind of lame humor, I escaped the conversation. He knew he was pushing me to my limits, but I just wasn’t ready to answer the tough questions. I maybe couldn’t even answer them for myself.   It was safe to be transparent, but I couldn’t do it.  I felt attacked, although he was coming at me from a loving and caring place.

A year and a half later, I still struggle with times like these, although now, I wholeheartedly believe that there is something beautiful about being vulnerable.

It’s straight up frightening to be vulnerable. I used to see it as a sign of weakness, but that’s so far from the truth. I shake my head at my younger self for thinking that. Yes, you feel exposed and yes, exposure is scary, but if you own that exposure, nobody can use it against you. Not one single person.  Trust me.

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So, as part of owning my own vulnerability, I really want to start writing more, specifically about my life (more personal and meaningful topics) and how I live it.  This blog is a great creative outlet for me, and I’d like to take it to the next level. #WatchThisSpace for what’s to come in this new year 😉

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All of these amazing photos are from Pipilotti Rist’s exhibit titled Pixel Forest, which is now on display at the New Museum (located in the LES, 235 Bowery). I have seriously been trying to go to this exhibit since it opened in October, but just never found the time! Due to all the press and hype, the exhibit was extended, and I finally took the opportunity to go yesterday.

Rist is a Swiss video artist known for her mesmerizing and hypnotic video and multimedia installations. Her video, film, and image projections incorporate themes of gender, sexuality, and the human body.

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Pixel Forest occupies the main three floors of the New Museum. The exhibit includes works that span over the artist’s entire career, emphasizing the progression of technology and how this evolution has affected her art.

The kaleidoscopic projections, soothing audio, rhythmic lighting of each piece make you feel as if you are transported from your everyday, monotonous world into a tranquil, dreamlike environment.

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I love entrancing LED installations, so naturally my favorite piece was Looking Through Pixel Forest, a hanging LED installation and video projection piece (pictured above and below). The hanging LED lights changed to all colors of the rainbow in a rhythmic pattern while two videos played on the adjacent walls. The video, audio, and lighting combination made me feel like I was in a pixel forest, straight out of the movie Avatar or something. I felt like I was in a completely different world, and I loved every moment of it.

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This exhibit ends on January 15th!! That’s in 4 days, so I strongly suggest making it a priority to check it out yourself!

Read more about Pipilotti Rist and her Pixel Forest here and here.

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Xx Marisa

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Warming up at MoMA PS1

IMG_2109Warm weather is here and outdoor concert season is upon us!  MoMA PS1 (affiliated with MoMA, Museum of Modern Art) just released their Warm Up line up for summer sixteen.  Warm Up is an outdoor concert series, which takes place in the courtyard of this well-known art establishment located in Long Island City, Queens.  Warm Up features an array of music genres and artists, both local and international.  You’ll be able to experience anything from techno to live drummers, and if you get there before 6pm, take a stroll around the art exhibitions!

Warm Up starts Saturday, June 11th and runs every Saturday through August 27th.  Hours are 3pm-9pm, doors open at 12pm.  Tickets are $22 in advance and $25 the day-of.  Cocktails and snacks are available for purchase.

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What a fun and upbeat way to spend a Saturday!

Click here for the lineup and more info about MoMA PS1.

P.s. It’s called MoMA PS1 because the building was previously a school, and it now attracts over 150,000 visitors a year!

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Throwback Thursday: “China: Through the Looking Glass”

I haven’t been to my favorite museum (the Metropolitan Museum of Art) in a long time, so I thought I’d do a throwback post on my favorite art exhibit to date: “China: Through the Looking Glass.

Last spring and summer, the Met exhibited this combined fashion and art exhibit which examined the “impact of Chinese aesthetics on Western fashion and how China has fueled the fashionable imagination for centuries” (Metropolitan Museum of Art).

The exhibit was divided into smaller galleries presenting different themes of Chinese culture.  These rooms were filled with haute couture, avant-garde, and even ready-to-wear fashion paired along with pieces of Chinese artworks and culture.

This exhibit was truly breath-taking.  Through music, film, lighting, and technology, I felt as if I was transported into a different space and era each time I walked into a different room.  Many times I caught myself thinking, “It’s hard to believe I’m still at the Met right now!”

My favorite room was the Porcelain Room, where high-fashion dresses incorporated blue and white porcelain patterns as well as actual Chinese porcelain.  Of course my favorite piece was the stunning ball gown created by Chinese designer Guo Pei (6th photo featured below).

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I am so excited to see what the Met’s current exhibit, “Manus x Machina,” has to offer!

#ChinaLookingGlass #MetMuseum #TBT

Sources:

“China: Through the Looking Glass.” The Metropolitan Museum of Art, I.e. The Met Museum. Web. 24 May 2016. <http://www.metmuseum.org/exhibitions/listings/2015/china-through-the-looking-glass&gt;.